A girl from far away

So I have been getting this email from this girl. I don't know how it really came about but we been sending emails back and forth and stuff . But I have a problem I don't know if she is real or fake I have seen pictures of her and she is gorgeous and I mean beautiful.. Well I think she is beautiful and she has answered some of questions not all of them which makes me a little more uneasy. So now she says she is going to come and visit me here which freaks me out just a little more. The problem I guess is I have a real hard time trusting anybody as is and that. Of against anybody it's just the has tough me to always watch your back no matter what. There are only a hand few of people I trust in my life 100% and I guess if your reading this your one of them lol or your to far away to beat me with some thing haha.

Back on point so I don't know if I should even believe any of this crap that she has told me. Other thing is why is she interested in me?But that what I say with any chick why me and what is your angle? Is this bad i don't know but that what I know from other relationship. If a chick date me for the most I know they must have angle their running away from some asshole that hit them so they find me because I look mean and they know I don't stand for that shit or I have money and they want it or they want me to fill a void in there life at that moment and then throw me away I don't know what it is. But that is what I know about relationships.

I hope she is real and really real about what she says. Maybe she is my prayer answered but I doubt it. I really do I swear if she is real but only wants my liver she has another thing coming lol lol.. If this ends being false as suspect and some body just wants fuck with me I am going back the old me because I am done with play by the rules. Playing the rule you only get hurt swear.

Were to go from here

I am 27 soon to be 28 I feel like I have not done what I set out to do and ever time I try I get a big huge road block in my way. I feel like I have been "ADJUSTED " each and every time which really sucks . To start with I had a great great job it was so great I even called it my surger daddy job it was that good. So that's was going good and everything the boss was talking about bumping up my pay and moving me some were else so needless to say my life was going good. So next good thing my settlement check for me surgery came in I was 6k up in life just I was so happy YES! 6k not alot of people see that all at once. Third best thing I got appoved for my motorcycle of my dreams it was awesome it was freakin beautiful it was so soo sexy it was more sexy then playmate it was a deffinent a OMG moment. And I got approve for this thing I was so happy nothing could go wrong in my life at that time. And then a stupid fucking. Cunt bitch wasn't watching the road or something and hit me going 60 mph and took all that awesomeness away from me. Took it all every fucking second of it. If I sound a little bitter about it I am . Oh and she took my good new car as well bitch!. So here I sit still kinda injured no money no car no bike no girl no nothing for my self. Am so mad but at the same time not really because if it was an adjustment then hopefully it was for the best. May the girl of my dreams come in the door or comes up to me and says some thing very cliche or something .